I wrote this earlier this month and didn’t post it. But I think it’s just as applicable today as any other day.
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It’s easy to forget. When you go through a season of pain and heartache and come out on the other side with tremendous blessing, it’s easy to forget how hard it was. It’s almost as if the joy of the blessing overshadows the life-shaping journey that came before. It wasn’t always a sure thing.
It’s also easy to take the blessing for granted. Over time, the miracle becomes mundane.
I don’t know if you’ve noticed, but sometimes when a facebook friend will comment on something posted by one of their friends, the item or status update will post to your news feed even if you don’t know the person. Tonight, I read the status update of a dad who had a baby girl prematurely born and die today.
The three miscarriages that happened in our little family changed us. And yet I find myself tonight asking God to not let me forget the miracle and blessing that both of my girls are nor the blessing of the journey, as difficult as it was. I find myself asking God to wrap his arms around a family that I know nothing about aside from their loss today. I find myself overwhelmed with gratitude.
YOU my friend, like it or not are SO MUCH like ME! Your example of what happened to YOU on FB, has happened and does happen to me FREQUENTLY! I can be on FB, just fancy-free, wasting time so to speak, THEN run into a status as you spoke of and TOTALLY find myself consumed in THEIR pain, THEIR story, THEIR heartache. I use that time wisely, as I feel as if I didn’t just stumble onto it by mistake, and i PRAY FOR THEM. TRULY PRAY for them! I have been hurt, no HURT. I have come through some horrible pain and still some with mother i haven’t been able to truly heal as i am still hurting. HOWEVER!!!, i am so BLESSED! GOD has been SO GOOD to me and Taylor, and BLESSED US beyond belief. Many have learned a lesson by the journey we were on and still continue. I pray that lives will be changed from my journey! I WOULD NOT BE WHO I AM IF FOR NOT THAT JOURNEY! I would NOT be the mother that I am today FOR NOT THAT JOURNEY, and for that I AM TRULY TRULY GRATEFUL! My childhood and my marriage have truly made me who I am even as I sit here typing. With God’s help I will take those experiences and help others make it through. I have prayed countless prayers over the years for the Bauerle’s during your painful journey and have cried many a tear, feeling your pain. My niece was pregnant at the same time as Kellie, Kellie miscarried and Reese (my great niece) is a constant reminder of a child that is gone. My niece also miscarried several times b/4 receiving her Blessing in Reese. When Penny came into this world she was truly God’s little Blessing and we are so thankful for her. Babies are MIRACLES and BLESSINGS! Journey’s are what they are…JOURNEY’S! Thank YOU GOD for our journey’s that transform us into who YOU want us to be. May we never stop being grateful for our Miracles and Blessings no matter what shape or form you give them to us. God please BLESS, Dustin, Kellie, Maisie, Penny, Misty, Reese, and Taylor! I LOVE THEM ALL DEARLY!! Thank you Dustin for writing from your heart so I could write from mine.